my life.

Recollections : sigh. a blog at 4am. this is really a quiet time to recall whatever has happened… let’s see… in the afternoon, i went to my uncle’s house, it was my grandma’s birthday. well, nice but boring day, imagine sharing 5 notebooks, 1 desktop and 1 PDA worth of bandwdth leeching on a 512kbps line. poor line well, msn was clogged, with kaoru, her, and dodo on messenger. then came the most boring part, i had to stay till around 0150HRs then i can go home, yeah, seems pathetic and sad. sigh, she should be waking up at around 0600. wonder if i can stay up till then… haha. pushing my luck i guess… my my… this really sucks. hope i will be blogging later.. missing days of blogs. i am so guilty…

Secrets : people keep secrets. how i wonder, why secrets are so hard to keep, not allowing other parties to probe into them, not allowing people to find them. i wonder, what secrets do i have? have i not bared my soul fully to anyone? guess not… i will never forget those vivid memories… sigh… how i wish i could be like before, 500 rope skippings wont cause any exhausation, 1.6km run i would barely pass, and now its so pathetic… sigh… how many times have a hurt a person… i wonder.. rather, it will remain in me, never to be revealed. why? i don’t know, it is me, therefore this is who i am.

Medrio
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awakening : hmm, seems like awakening has been part of my blog for a long time, blah, today woke cause of a sms to my phone, the beep was so loud, yeah, woke me.. haha. seems its around 10 plus in the morning… quite early i guess… mew…

afternoon : watched a few anime episodes. sigh, only remembered tsukuyomi ~moon phase~’s episode. haha. it’s so funny, about the lil girl called Hazuki ^_^ (yes she’s a vampire). dependancy i guess…

night : hmm, seems like i got so bored, got onto msn and talked to her using the audio feature. haha, i don’t have to be afraid of my bill being burst again. meep ^_^

thoughts of the day

Dependancy. I feel that in all ways, we depend a bit too much on another person. that makes you quite terrible, without the person to guide you along or be there, it seems there’s no meaning to anything. quite sad huh? well well, i got posted to Singapore Polytechnic. Hope my life gets better there and I become more sociable. hard to do, but I shall try my best, after all, i can’t rely too much on anyone. i live because of someone? nah, not what i should be thinking now i guess… ne ne… something learnt ^_^. valuable or not? I wonder. If it’s not valuable, it wont be remembered much, if it does, it should remain in me, forever…

Signing off,
Medrio Xylenus
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The otaku at home.