Archive for June, 2005
June 16 thoughts.
June 16 is aleways a day for me to remember every year. Though i have no interest in the day itself. however, today is a day to be mentioned. thanks to these few people, wan qing, yiting, jesley, wei choon, shu jun, shawn, jia bao. i got a cake
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53 minutes to my birthday. i feel uber excited, though there won’t be anything that will surprise me =\. haha, whatever, anywayz, of course, not to forget… ??? ?????… that’s another day of loving you 
… bleah, sounds so crappy =\, but yeah, that’s another day ^^. Hopes for the new year are as follows, anyone who wishes to contribute may do so XD:
Oh well, that’s little right . haha, i’m off for now.. *hopes santa pops into my house =\*
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OMGZ a few more hours and i’m a year older , yay, i feel so terrible on the 15 of june. i think my darkest fears are going to come true.. who i really am will be leaked to who i know… sigh… oh well, this feels terrible, i want to lead a “normal” life in poly, but no, i think i better keep my distance… between them, otherwise i am really doomed… sigh..
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yay, 3 days to my birthday!!! .oh well, to keep this blog alive, bleh
i went to k box today, realised that i can’t sing well =\. in fact, shia-chan sings A LOT better than me, i think. haha.
thanks to those who had to suffer under my singing.. especially that guy who slept !!!
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26 March…
morning blues : called her and talked nothing… then came that destruction from the heavens. yep, its all gone, but still, i wonder why i dont feel sad, or whatever that is, its like there’s no sad thoughts.. not like when i got the “no” by ling. being alone is part of life, friends are here to keep us along, i guess, the number of friends i actually have can be counted using 2 hands.
heh, after looking back at march 26′s post, i suddenly felt that then hurt more than the ‘no’ by ling, i wonder, being alone… oh well, i felt that then i was lifeless, no more meaning to live on… yet i didn’t realise that there’s a significant lil thing that pushed me on. till now, er, at least till may 27. oh well, that significant lil thing still pushes me on, just that it has grown a lil teeny weeny bit larger.. thanks a lot. polytechnic life, some place where people say friends there are very limited, i wonder, how much will my class bond? and now, what i am afraid is, my friends slowly “open” up me, and find out what i am.. what i really am…, rather, my old self. i need to move on from that old self. so far, i can say that i have moved on, much. oh well, shall lookback at my blogs once in a while. without this blog, i think i would still have been the old self. being such a pessimistic and dejected person. thinking that everything is boredoom and sadness. fun and joy. and the essence of her presence, that’s a lot..
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