my life.

taken from Color Profile thingy

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that ‘True love is just around the corner’ and – if you haven’t found it as yet – you possibly soon will.

You dislike playing the field in every sense of the word. When you develop a relationship it needs to be a close fulfilling one, one that has deep meaning for all parties concerned.

You wear your heart on your sleeve and since you are an emotional person you are apt to give your all – heart and soul – to all those that show you a little affection; but take care – it would appear that you have been extremely hurt in the past and you keep leaving yourself wide open for punishment.

Recently everything seems to have gone wrong and so you are experiencing considerable stress and anxiety due to mental conflict. A continuous case of ‘Should I?’ or ‘Shouldn’t I?’. At this particular moment in time you feel as if you have reached the end of your tether and it seems impossible to ever rectify the situation and so you have decided, perhaps quite unrealistically, to postpone making any further decisions. Disappointment and unfulfilled hopes have given rise to despondency. This conflict between hope and necessity is creating considerable pressure. Instead of resolving this by facing up to making the essential decision, you are likely to immerse yourself in the pursuit of trivialities as an escape route.

The tensions and stresses that you have experienced of late have been the result of trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond your capabilities. You feel completely inadequate to cope with the situation and you would like nothing better to escape from it all and to be able to relax in a problem and pressure free environment where you can do your thing.

Oh well, i don’t know how much is true and how much it isn’t, its up to you friends to decide lol…

-wL
-aaErN

bored. school sucks. kind of boring days looking ahead. nothing to look out for, i kind of seem too bored.

i think i need to stop thinking crazily, my life is at such a chaotic mode, probably i feel bloody emo or what hehz. school work at a mess, thinking that i will finish some stuffs but yet i know i really have to try so hard to. keep recalling memories.. with only one real past memory to really think of, it’s kind of really sad, i kind of get attached to the number 11..

now i am in my room doing absolutely nothing, that’s pretty much why i feel so bored and such, can’t be helped eh, in this room where i really have nothing to do… thinking about past, i don’t really feel the hurt, more like why i didn’t treasure it or something, i didn’t cherish the whole relationship, cause i gave up near the end of it, kind of wondering why i did that.. wasn’t it so near so 1st year? sigh… duno whether like its wasted or something.

sigh. done sketches.. blabla… prolly gonna do another sketch and or what lol..

that’s it for now, i guess

-wL

taken from subs from Sola OP,

In the nostalgic wind, the illusion showed me all the memories that we had built up back then
I won’t forget someone’s voice, resounds painfully and trembles in this feeling of a beginning..

look forward and stop thinking about the past? hopefully…