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sometimes i wonder why ties are so important, because you don’t really need to think much, but they are always there for you, more than anyone else, no matter how bad or whatever it becomes, they’ll stick by you.

yet i kind of wonder, why do my friends know more than what people close around me should know first hand? Probably it was my fault, not trying to be what i should in so much of my early years. i kind of regret, but i guess it’s too late to fix it.

i’m tired of trying to build a sand castle, instead of helping with pouring sea water to help moulding,
you decide to send the waves.

and thus the erosion will begin.
cause i learnt, felt, decided.
soon i won’t be there anymore.
naturally, i would have decided that i shouldn’t,
but i guess it is needed.

many times i thought it would be okay, but i guess it wouldn’t.
many times i believed that it shouldn’t be that way, i changed a lot in my perspectives and priorities.
many times i was over the line, you just snap away without hesitation and thought on why some things happen.
many times you did something that pissed me off so bad, i kind of looked over it.
many times thinking back, my friends know much more than you, cause you simply were unapproachable.
many times i think you should know first, guess i was so wrong anyway.

with so many of many times, i’m really tired, i bet you are as well, so, let’s just start it with erosion.
i guess, erosion begins.

.loong

2010
10/28
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thinking back.

oh well, blogging again since such a long time. time flies, time to serve the nation. I used to believe that pfah, weekends are just days to rot away, how wrong am I. Now weekends are freaking precious, so precious that I will have to plan everything before hand. wasting a weekend is so gonna feel so fucked. lol! So you fucking bastards that wasted my FIRST confinement’s saturday. bloody hell. you deserve to be tip-toed by some fatty wearing heels, on your stomach -_-.

and well, this half year pretty nice i guess, met new people, get to know more people. understand people, and understand myself a lot better. Okay. Thanks for all who were with me when I was down ^^, at least I don’t go all emo already, things that I know, I have overlooked, and a lot of things I realised much later, it all doesn’t matter anymore. thanks to all of you guys yeah.

listening to: ??? – ???

signing off, i guess, till the next time i blog again… heh.
looooooooooooooooooooong

Happiness, something that keeps one going

Recollections, something that keeps one updated of the past and move on

Realization, something that allows one to know of more events, although less than usually neutral

Love, something that allows one to go crazy over a certain person/people

Time, something that allows you to do all of the above, or let all of the above happen

2008
06/29
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looking back

wow, this thing seems so nostalgic, every time i blog, I am either emoz, or can’t sleep, for tonight, it’s the can’t sleep part.

Hey xuan, happy belated birthday, if you happen to read this lol!

Remembered meeting out  with my primary school peeps, wow, though a brief dinner and ktv with a few of us, hope the next meeting comes soon man! Since p6, I guess we’ve known each other for about.. say.. 7 years? Well, I wonder when we’ll meet again, by then I guess most of us already have jobs, those from poly probably already ORD-ed from NS, and probably if it’s like 5-6 years down instead, the girls could probably even be married haha..

Oh, and driving test is drawing near! 29 may, will I pass it? Really don’t wanna fail it. can’t wait to really drive a car out, and next few CNYs if family going to genting again, heh! probably could alternate drive with my dad~
Blah, I’ll fill this up next time today if I still can’t sleep.

2008
05/13
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stress?

oh well, i thought about it for a few hours and realised, should i even start chasing her? or should i stop thinking about her and focus on my school, in which should be like much more important i guess, however so, fact is, i still think of her… probably i should just give up totally…

oh. chalet. something i must definitely type about lol. the past few days i was at a chalet, and well, it’s with the apostles community, more and more of us are attending chalets i guess, even one of us from Shanghai came here, and another one from KL, heh. sounds fun eh… most of the time we are slacking around, but drinking games are really the best games i guess, first night with WATER, then second night with alcohol, while third night is new year, so yeah, just beer. i think that’s my first hangover heh. feel really lousy on the day after that, luckily its time to go…

chalet… oh well, there’s my ex and her “new” boyfriend, not knowing how long she’s with him though, probably a month or so i guess, looking at the boyfriend being pulled around for a brief moment, i somehow kind of looked at myself then, but now with a different PoV, memories? doubt will ever be dug up again, keeping her 2 bottles worth of her “love” then really sounds meaningless, however still in my room, just kept in a drawer.. there’s still her err .. something bozu.. that keeps off the rain, no matter how much my dad destroyed it it’s still there. what i truely hope for her, would be that she will be more patient and less snappy, and stop throwing tantrums… i don’t know, feeling concerned and all, but no longer harboring any feelings. just concerned like for a friend? obviously i still kept the broken necklace she broke, i remembered my heart cried that night and it went more or less dead, towards her… that’s why i feel very upset, have i hurt her? to destroy something worth of such a value… but well, too bad then, whatever’s over is over. i promised myself to forget about her and move on, i can’t believe i actually did lol.. i think?

next i realised that i like hugs :/, after reading lots of blogs.. hugs are like.. warmth… i miss them… alot heh.. sigh.. aircon blowing hard >.>; 25 deg and i can’t be bothered to actually switch it down…

- weiloong

081001 (just some notes i’m jotting down)

2007
01/03
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Okay. Summing up the last year… (actually more on the last few days of the year too)

Okay. my mood now is in kind of a jumbled up feeling, thus this post, i don’t know how long it will be and how short it may seem to be to describe a “whole” year kind of thing.

Regarding ramblings, i guess i have nothing much to grumble and ramble about, since there’s nothing much i really looked forward to in this whole year, other than moving on, and trying to forget some times that has passed. It may seem to come back again, but well, what’s over is over, and i’ll not step backwards, unless there’s an absolute necessary.

About “Her”, i don’t know how many hers’ am i looking at, or talking about. I realised that i have moved on, but more like crushing on another, and another… what am i thinking :/, but guess ’07 will be a new start, so yeah. oh, looks like a previous of the “her” found another mate, hope the mate will treausure her more than what i did, and that she has a little more tolerance probably…

thoughts and personal spaces! ok. nothing

WoW. err. with the insane amount of lag i can’t do anything, so ya. screw it. i paid for the dumb wow subscription and forget to cancel it. starhub jiayou >_>;

2007
01/02
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